happy.

The past couple of months I have been: content. Since we all know my emotional scale is usually pretty off the wall, content was a happy medium (along with content, another one of my favorite words lately) and life was good. I was training for all my runs, and staying focused on school and work, which sometimes meant not going out as much and going to bed really early, which I was perfectly okay with.
and then life happened...

I met a person who has made me happy. I was surprised, and I think everyone in my life is also surprised at the sudden change in my life. Everyone is used to me being the one that loves to be single, or the one that loves to meet new people and enjoy everyone's company, so when this amazing person came into my life, there was a big change. I'm not one to want to spend everyyyy day with someone, and I enjoy my alone time-a lot. With that said, I've seen this boy everyday since our first date and I enjoy every minute of our time together. (and I won't go into detail of why because I will write forever! )
and then life happened, again...

It's been FOREVER since I've happily said "I have a boyfriend" so I guess I forgot how much time management it needs. Basically, my free time has been spent with him, and I am perfectly happy with that. Others? not so much. but here's where you find out who your friends are.
My family and my friends have told me how happy they've seen me lately and how happy they are for me that I finally found someone I deserve. woohoo right? well I have some "friends" that aren't really that okay with it. I was upset for a while because of course I want to make everyone happy and I really did feel guilty. But the more I talked to friends and the more everyone told me how happy they were and the more I thought about it, I'm realizing that I am making everyone happy. Everyone that matters.
Who matters? the people that are sticking by me. The people that understand that circumstances change: I wasn't going out as much because I was training, now I'm taking a break, hence why I can let loose a little :)  The people that truly know me and know that half the time I'm not around anyway, but know that we can pick up where we left off ANY time. The people that realize this new relationship is a big deal for me, because if it wasn't, I wouldn't be investing so much time into it. and I know that I am making them happy because they have wanted this for me.


and one more thing, I usually don't mention anyone's names on here, but I neeeeed to give a shout out to:
Nicole. you are the epitome of an amazing friend. Thank you for always understanding me, loving me unconditionally, and loving me for me-flaws and all (even after I make mistakes).Thank you for always knowing what to say when I don't even know what I need to hear. I love you.

Amanda. thank you for believing in me, even when I've lost all hope. thank you for understanding me and still loving me through my craziness. I love you.

Vanessa.thank you for always making me laugh. for your awesome friendship in such little time.  Thank you for letting me into your life and accepting me for who I am. I love you.


Now that we've addressed that- in other news...

Austin Jailbreak this weekend! I'm excited for a lighter race! and it's my first mud run! hopefully we will get some pictures so I can share with you guys :)
no more big races for me until after the summer probably...but I'm looking for some good places to run around in San Antonio, I love my babcock hills but I want to switch things up sometimes too! :)
and for all my mommy friends, the kids have been obbsesed with the Winnie The Pooh soundtrack from the latest movie, and now I am a bit too :) It has Zooey Deschanel singing and I am falling in love with her voice! it also has some instrumental songs that (at least my kids) enjoy! which makes me a happy girl because that means they recognize good music, not just Mickey Mouse singing :) It's def worth a download, it's adult bearable. :) :)
and last but not least, I LOVE LENT! this lent season has been fantastic!!! looking forward to healed hearts, and renewed spirits!

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Get up.

Get up.
It's what I tell myself every morning. It's what I yell at myself when I'm running uphill. It's what gets me out of bed on Saturday mornings when I have a long run planned. It's what I tell myself when the alarm goes off at 5 am and I know I have a long commute to school. Get up.
Funny how I'm obsessed with quotes (especially with pinterest now a days! follow me:marimon) but it seems like a simple, two word sentence has really become my go-to motto. Then I started thinking why? Saying get up, for me, isn't because I have to...it's the reasons why I choose to "get up" so here I go. :)
1. I get up for school because I chose to be an educated individual. I made the decision to challenge myself and go to college, to be educated, and in the long run, so whatever life may throw at me, I can be (or at least feel) prepared. I chose it to make my family proud, I chose it to make myself proud. That's what "get up" means to me in the mornings, it's one day closer to reaching these goals. So, I choose to get up, get ready, and drive :)

2. I get up for work because I have been beyond blessed to have a job that I love. I get to wake up before the sun is up to two beautiful children (one very sleepy, one veryyyy awake) I laugh at how much we do before we are even out the door, and by the time everyone is out the door and at school it feels as if it could be noon already, but it's not, it's not even 9 am! :) :) But I can't complain because those cute little smiling faces make it all worthwhile.

3. I get up to run because, again, I chose to live a healthier lifestyle. The way I feel after a work out, the way I feel after a good run, that's my sanity, and my happiness. I know when I don't work out I feel moody and irritable, so I choose to give my body what it is asking for. I also choose to get up and run, because I chose to challenge myself and do something I thought I would never do: run a half marathon. Now I've ran 2 and I've challenged myself yet again, and now I want to run better and faster. (also known as runner's high, lol)  So I get up because I want to push, and fight, and ultimately win. Not a race win, but win against myself. because trust me, no one reallllllyyy cares you ran a marathon, or your time, or if you beat your personal record. Sure you get compliments and people think you are crazy, but for me it's not about that, it's about how much I want something and proving to myself how much I am willing to go for it.
It's about drive. and discipline. and happiness.

so, life lesson learned: everything seems so much easier when I have a goal, when I constantly remind myself that I have chosen to be where I am now because of what I want for my future.

I hope this lets people understand me a bit more now and the changes I have been going through. I heard a friend complain to someone else that I was happy all the time. It hurt my feelings because I get happy when others are happy, so why would someone be so annoyed that I am happy all the time? do other people feel the same way? I hope not, but I hope this clears some things up, but more than anything, I hope this pushes someone to make that small change they need in their lives to be happy.

and I will leave you with these two awesome, inspirational Biggest Loser quotes from last week's episode.
"I'm changing on the inside and I like what I see" -Chris
 and my favorite....
"I'm gonna keep going, I'm not going to stop-because how I feel now is better than I've ever felt before in my life and I never want to feel different." -Chism, 19. After losing the weigh-in, what a rockstar!