blessed.

sighhhh* I can't stop thinking how incredibly blessed I have felt lately. I have seriously been blessed with some amazing people in my life. so lets catch up. 

school started. woohoo! there were some road blocks I had to conquer for this semester but everything ended up the way He wanted it. It wasn't my perfect schedule but I have def learned that MY perfect schedule really is a big joke to God, and I'm okay with that :) 

My "kids" are simply perfect. Another aspect in which I have been blessed in! Last Friday I got to watch one of my littlest ones try eating by himself in the high chair for the first time. I was so amazed how quickly kids pick up things! and his brother was like "watch this" and showing him how he should pick it up and put it in his mouth. He's only 2, yet he already knows that he has a role in teaching his little bro, amazing, again :) 

What I really wanted to make this entry about though is really how awesome His love is and how I know that I have guardian angels that are guiding me the way He wants me to go. For example, last semester I was in this drawing class and it was at the worst time ever. especially on a Friday. but I got a good grade on it, but to top it off I met a great girl there that I call my "twin" because we literally have so much in common. She's quickly become one of my best friends and I KNOW for a fact she was meant to be part of my life (and I know will be in it for forever, as cheesy as that sounds haha) With this whole growing up thing I have been faced with a lot of people basically "pushing me over" yes, I just called myself a push over, it's ok. I've embraced it, and because I think I would rather let things go instead of standing my ground- most of the time. The road blocks and headaches that have been put in front of me with friends have really helped shape me. Even though I have lost some friends in that process, I still don't regret it because it taught me that sometimes we have to get negative out of our lives, and although it may hurt at first, I know it's what I needed to do. 

I'm in such an awesome stage of life right now, I feel like graduation is going to sneak up on me, I feel like it's in forever but it won't. I'm so excited about the half marathon in Disney in February, working out like this has seriously changed my life. I've surrounded myself with awesome people and I can't help but thank God for putting them in my life. Super excited about this semester, lets see what it has in store for me! :) 

ooohh Schertz, Texas!

So today was JR's graduation...my friend Jossie's younger brother. Today was such a sweet day in so many ways. One, because I see JR as the younger brother I never had. He has the biggest heart of anyone I know and he has allllwayyys shown that even when Jossie and I were mean to him. haha It was also sweet because Jossie and I hadn't hung out in a while and I consider them more than friends, they are family. We've known each other since I was in 6th grade and we have been bffs ever since. and I keep saying we because when I think of them it's everyone, mom dad jr and jossie. Jossie's mom might as well be my mom! but the deep deep reason I was inspired to blog today? GROWTH. 

This morning I was at a swim meet babysitting and I happened to see a football coach from my old high school and his family, I babysat his two boys and I just couldn't get over how much they had grown! and then the day just kept being filled with everyone growing. I sat at the graduation I thought I didn't know anyone but like 3 people graduating, turns out I was wrong! As I heard last names being called out, I was recognizing them and Jossie (who had been in highschool when these Seniors were coming in as sophomores) would be like "yes that's so and so's little brother/sister." I was sooo surprised because the kids walking the stage were my friends little brother or sister that I would see when I went to my friends when I was in like 5th and 6th grade or so. now they were graduating! it def made me feel old, but then also it got me thinking of good ol Schertz, Texas. the place we all "hated" and "wanted to get out of" I see it now and it really is a nice place to live in and we were all very lucky to have grown up in a small town that cared so much about each other, no matter what drama was going on. It made me really appreciate it! it's kind of sad because Schertz isn't my "home" anymore since my parents moved to San Antonio (I still say im from there though hehe) It made me go back to the day I left high school, and even though I graduated "because I couldn't be in high school one more year" I don't regret it, I just think about the Mariana back then, the one who wanted to conquer the world one kindergarner at a time. Now I have changed my major, but have fallen in love more with kids than I think I ever would have if I stayed in my education major. weird I know. The Mariana that had a huge heart and wasn't afraid to show it, I was an open book for the world to read. and now, I little more timid than I used to be at 18, a little more reserved when it comes to my heart, and I surely don't smile as often as I did back then. So now, I'm inspired to light that spark again, to be so innocent and ready to live and eager to see what was next in life. 

Schertz now holds a more special place in my heart. Last night I was talking with friends and the only reason why we were even friends is because we were introduced by people that went to our high school, even though we are years apart. That's how small this town is, everyone just meshes in. I used to see that as horrible, but I see a new beauty in it now. It's like this weird love-hate bond. I can't imagine my life without all the people I met there, and even to this day, I meet people because "they are so and so's cousin/brother/sister/etc who went to Clemens"(our high school). 

Thank you so much Schertz, Texas. For the wonderful memories, for the amazing friends I made ever since I was 7, (and that we are still in touch now, even if they moved, because of wonderful technology) for the "small town feeling" I've never felt anywhere else, for the times I rolled my eyes and said "oooh Schertz", for all the drama, all the tears, and all the laughs.